A list

5 things for which I'm grateful today:

1.  My new apartment.  The location, size, amenities.  My building engineer has done more for me in three weeks than management at my last place did in 2 years (and they really needed to...).  The layout is clean and spacious, and my stuff fits well.  I've got lots of closet space.  The cats like the windowsills (which is very important, because I'm not home all day and when you think about it, that is their TV it's not like they work on their novels when I'm gone, ya know).  The less than ideal things (having to buy my own window treatments, odd showerhead, the laundry room being ALLLLLL the way over on the other side of the building) are so minor as to barely be worth mentioning other than to serve as a reminder that nothing, NOTHING, is perfect and it's folly to ask that it be.

2.  My sense of humor.  It's a good one, and hey, I have one and I'm always sad at so many who don't.  How the hell do you get through the day without laughing?  How do you get through life without sinking slowly into despair and staying there if you cannot find the funny?  Humor is not trivial.  It is a necessity.  Absolutely and can I have an amen.

3.  Lilacs.  They are beautiful, they always make me think of spring and my upcoming birthday when they are in bloom, and their fragrance reminds me of my childhood.  There was a lilac bush outside our house, and the scent I associate with home.  There is a lilac bush on the street that I walk down to and from my new bus stop, and my discovery of it just thrilled me.

4.  My cats.  I've had cats as pets for 11 years now and I cannot imagine life without them.  They are fun and funny and offer unconditional love and neverending affection.  And my first cat, Gracie, led me into the veterinary field, which has been the saving grace of my life.

5.  My recent breakup.  It is strange to write that, given the nature of the relationship, but I do strive for honesty and this is a truth, though I could not have seen it at the time.  I am grateful to be free of something that wasn't right for me or for him, and that it ended in such a time so that we can take our lessons learned and make better lives for ourselves because of it, not despite of it.  I knew that I would eventually reach acceptance, but I didn't know that I would actually be happier, even in the moments of loneliness that inevitably strike, now that I'm back on my own. A complete and welcome surprise, and I am ever, ever grateful.

-C.